Lifes a Roller Coaster

Last week sometime I was watching a movie and towards the end the main character (Steve Martin) and his wife were going through some stuff. One of which was the finding out she was pregnant with their 4th child when they thought they were done and couldn't really afford another child. Wisely this main character's grandmother a cute ol lady walks into the room and says "You know, when I was 17 your grandpa took me on a roller coaster ride at the fair. It was scary, fun and exciting.... Some people prefer to stay on the merry go round and just go around in circles. Wheres the excitement in that? No I preferred the roller coaster". At the time Steve Martin rolled his eyes but later in the movie it shows him realizing she was talking about life.

It got me thinking about how right she was, life can be like a roller coaster. We can choose to white knuckle the ride, close our eyes and hold our breaths till the end and then jump off and run to the "safer" merry go round. Or we can throw our hands up in the air, open our eyes and scream our lungs out (in fun of course) and enjoy the ride to the end and when its over hop back on and enjoy it again. Our week last week has been one of those roller coaster rides. Its had its highs! And its had its lows that I'll admit at times I was white knuckling it and holding my breath and yes sometimes crying just waiting for it to end. But its life and I wouldn't want to be stuck on a boring merry go round.

Last Tues Willa had her 2mo baby check up. It went for the most part good, she was a big 10.4lbs and 22 1/2in long. She has caught up to her "ideal" weight which is something we have yet to accomplish with Eli. She LOVES to eat. She had some shots as they normally do at this age and of course was pretty fussy most of the evening. But as long as I was holding her nuzzled against my breast she was pretty quite and content. We decided to spend the day with my aunt and her kids after. Eli had a BLAST as did Mommy watching him play with his cousins. Later Casey joined us at their house for dinner and we had some fun. Finally coming home for the evening. Weds was a normal day but I was on a high, I slept good and I felt good. I've always known I need to be around people a lot and I think that 1 day of socializing was a good thing for me. I looked forward to good food and spending time with Casey's family the next day.

Thurs we started down into a low, Casey wasn't feeling well, we suspect him getting food poisoning from under cooked chicken (Hey I tried to make sure that piece was done!) We still went to his mom's house for dinner and had a nice time. Finally leaving a little earlier then normal due to Casey not feeling well. That night Willa didn't sleep through the night, then it really began. For some reason Willa would scream if I put her down, it wasn't just putting her down it was every time I handed her to Casey even. She would scream bloody murder unless I personally was holding her and nursing her. She was attached at the boob nearly all day. Most of the time she would just nuk a little and then fall asleep but as soon as I would move her or put her down she'd wake and scream. It continued most of the night, all day Saturday and Saturday night. By this point I was so exhausted I could hardly even hold her! FINALLY around 2am Sun she fell asleep for a few hours. Sunday we seemed to be coming out of the slump, while we're still waiting to get back up on the high part of the roller coaster I think we're headed back up. At least I hope so, she still wants to be held a lot but is back to sleeping better although still not back through the night. I CAN put her down for a few minutes at least and Casey can once again hold her and get little smiles from her. While this week has been hard I think I would still rather be on a roller coaster then to be on a merry go round where nothing happens. No good, no bad. Just nothing, I've been in that state before and don't care for it. Bring on life's adventures!