Late nights with the kids

"God is not here to be a part of our story, we are here to be a part of HIS story"- Max Lucado

This week has been trying for me, while last week Willa did GREAT over night only waking every 3-4hrs to eat really quick and going back to sleep right away, this week has been the complete opposite. Staying awake for hours on end at night and then not able to keep her awake during the day it has left me quite exhausted. To make it worse Eli has come down with a fever and hasn't been feeling good which has made him more clingy and fussy and more wide awake. Top it all off with Casey being out of town and well you have one very stressed and overwhelmed young family.

Last night was the worst we've had so far, Willa wanting to eat every 1-2hrs and then only taking a tiny bit before falling asleep just to wake up and scream if I tried laying her down. Eli waking up during that time and ending up in our bed with us while he drank some milk and waited for the Motrin to kick in to reduce his fever and help him feel better. Finally Eli was asleep around 4am, Willa on the other hand was wide awake anytime I'd lay her down. I finally got her to sleep around 7am and of course Eli woke up. Its just been one of those days. While I am exhausted and yes I'll admit I've been begging the kids (and God) for them to go to sleep. I still have to be thankful that aside from the fever and not feeling well I have healthy kids. That I at least have my baby I can hug and wish she'd go to sleep.

Recently a friend of mine had a miscarriage, I can't imagine the pain that must cause. Her grace about it and the way she told everyone was so admirable. I don't know that I would be able to be as Graceful about something like that as she has been. I know she loved that baby so much and it was hard on her yet she has dealt with it far better then I could ever hope to if something like that would happen to me. It reminds me to take a minute to hug my babies (no matter how worn out I am because of them at the moment) and to be thankful for every minute I have with them. Casey will be coming home sometime tomorrow and I can't wait! I am going to SLEEP, that is after he rests up from working long hours and driving the 4hr drive from St Louis. Thankfully I found out last night that it looks like they won't have to go back next week like originally thought because they should finish up this week! If he does have to go back it will be for 1 day. Drive there, do the job and come home. Although we are thankful he at least has a job when so many people don't right now.

So while I'm worn out physically and emotionally I am thankful to have a God who loves and cares for us and to be a part of HIS story. Knowing that I am a part of his story means I don't have to worry about what will happen because whatever happens is part of his master plan and that some day (even if its after the kids are grown and gone) I WILL sleep again. If nothing else I will get plenty of rest when God decides to call me home. :)